Fake

Distractions 

Keep my focus

Away from him 

To the point 

That I almost 

believe it myself 

I’m over it

I’m over him!

I say. 

But days like today

When that unseen force

Makes me listen to his voice

Over and over again 

“No matter what. 

No matter what!”

I am not over him 

And I miss him 

I miss his voice 

His smile 

The sparkle in his eyes 

That I have been trying to find 

In someone else’s face 

But failing 

And I am not strong 

As I’m pretending to be 

This fake it til ya make it

Surely works most days 

But it doesn’t work today

And today I’m tired of 

Faking it 

And today I’m tired 

of trying 

To make it 

Without him